Family Update

We have had an interesting couple weeks here. I know people have been wondering about how things are going. So... here is the update.

Last week I made up my mind. I decided to fight for my marriage. For better or worse, in sickness and health as we promised to eachother. Josh has been sick. I love Josh and if I didn't want a divorce then I would have to give him the benefit of the doubt and truly deal with our issues and put them in our past.
Josh has pretty much moved back home. Last weekend we had a very powerful/emotional day and have since been on the same page. We have always had a pretty intense connection and I was fighting it because of my hurt and anger. We are better together. I am not trusting him much to be home alone with the girls while I am at work. That is his witching hour... after the girls go to bed and he is home alone the beer comes out. I will not tolerate that when it comes to our girls. I feel like Josh is being honest with himself for the first time ever and with me. He still has many things to deal with and many hard conversations with people he loves in his future. But, I feel like we have the same goals and can work through this together. He has choices and he always did. Josh is an alcoholic and he is finally being honest with himself about that. He knows that he can never drink again or he will be in that same low spot again. He has been very dishonest about how much he has been drinking in the past and that is no more. Our goals are the same now and I pray that we can accomplish them together. A lot of relationships have been damaged in his wake and we are trying to deal with that one day at at time. For the most part we are doing OK. We have had lots of hard conversations. We are going to be seeking outside help. Along with the self help tools we have been using. It's time to start working together and communicating better. We have a lot to deal with still but there is hope that we can be better together through all of this.

Thank you for everyone's endless support. Especially my Mommy and Mommy-in-law for helping us with the girls so we can have time together to heal, for their undying support and love. Thank you.

I have tons to blog about, but really haven't had the time or motivation to do it. I haven't even taken the pictures off the camera from before my grandma's funeral. It's going to be a busy week for us. I work the next three nights and will hardly be home. Then we have family coming in for the weekend. Olivia is very excited to play with her cousins. We are planning a Lagoon day next Monday. I am not very excited to take Jorja. I haven't been to Lagoon since I was in high school. Should be interesting non the less. I hope that everyone is enjoying their summer. I can't believe how fast it is going by! Will do my best to get some pictures up here.
Love you all!